this is based on a true story
some identity”s have been changed to protect that persons personal information and would rather be anonymous
emilee: *throws ball at tate* catch! i shouted at tate
tate: *the ball hit my face* , meany! he screamed
emilee: oh my god! let me fix that, *touches face to make sure there’s no dents*
tate: *hugs emilee after she finished seeing if i was alright* thanks, my heart sunk, and then i said in a soft voice, b..bu..but its already fucked up.
emilee: how is it fucked up? i questioned him as i try to think, physically? mentally? i picked up the phone about to call his doctor.
tate: in both ways, i told her as i was looking down in shame
emilee: i walked up to Tate, *i hugged him tightly just to make him feel better* i moved his hair out of his eyes as i whisper, "i will still love you no matter what."
tate: *i smiled at emilee after what she told me*, thanks, that made me feel better.
emilee: *i look up at tate* well im only saying how i really feel *i smile and started to get nervous* tate… do you love me? as.. much as i love you? * i started to tense up and my anxiety started to kick in*
tate: yes but honestly i don’t know how much you love me…* i sat down and started to tear up feeling sorry for myself*
emilee: tate… words cant explain how much i love you, but i will try my best to explain how much i love you…. my love is infinite for you. * i sit down next to you and wipe you’re tears away as i hold you in my arms*
tate: *i tired to act like i was okay but i wasn’t, as i walked away from emilee*
emilee: whats wrong? did i do something wrong? i asked tate. *i started to cry* i just want you to be mine i yelled in a weeping voice, i miss you so much! i would do whatever to have you back! *i sit there as i watch you walk away*
tate: *i turned around to look back at emilee* im sorry.. but i cant loose you again *i sit down next to you and holds you’re hand* you’ll be better off with out me *i wipe the tears of you’re face* anyways im not the one for you anyways.
emilee: but how do u know if you’re gonna loose me again? *my vision was too blurry to see you but i still looked up at you* *tears rolled down my face* ever since i met you i had this vibe that you were the one for me, but the thing is tate i want you to be the one for me. *my heart started to beat faster like i was on a roller coaster, i got even more nervous than before*
tate: if i get back together with you i will loose you again and i need you to be strong without me,*i hugged you for the very last time* i want you to be the best person you can be just always know that i love you.
emilee: but again how would you know you will loose me? i wish i didn’t make that mistake so i could still have you as mine. i miss you alot more and more everyday. *i sat on the floor with my head on my knees and my hands wrapped around my legs* this is all my fault, i just really want you but i don’t think i can have you again *i couldn’t stop crying after what i told tate*
tate: *i picked up emilee and took her inside* i don’t know what to do because i cant do anything, i love you
emilee: *i walked into the other room to find you in you’re bed crying* i walked over to you i started to cry again, i wish you could give me a second chance but you probably wouldn’t,*i started to get emotional because im not strong enough to let you go*
tate:*i got up and walked away from emilee* i love you but i cant, i wish i could be with you but i cant! *i started to cry as i walked away*
emilee: but why? what is stopping you? *i started to get confused and frustrated*
tate: its hard to explain,*i left to jump off a cliff* im sorry but i love you good bye.
emilee: tate,you know you really didn’t jump off a cliff right? you just jumped off a table, i told him. but please explain to me, i need you, don’t do this to me please! *i got so emotional that i didn’t know what to do i just stood there covering my face while i was crying*
tate:i cant, i wish i could but i cant,*i left to go outside into the rain and i walked onto the middle of the street and laid on the ground waiting for a car to come and hit me*
emlee: tate stop! i yelled out,*i ran to get him i picked tate up and walked him safely back to his yard* don’t do stupid stuff like that! i cant risk loosing you again, and you can tell me cant you just say it? tate, i just want a second chance i screwed up last time and i love you with all my heart but i don’t know if you want to give me a second chance *i walked away , still missing you and wishing you could give me another chance*
it took me forever to type this but it was worth it.
did you like it?
he was perfect to me, in every way , everything he did was perfect.he was the only person ive actually loved. i thought he was the one for me, but honestly realizing that the reason we broke up was all my fault hurts so damn much. he was the only thing that mattered to me but on that day its like he wanted me to disappear, but finding out that he actually wanted me to disappear , i just couldn’t breathe. i didn’t know that he was ever going to hurt he, he was just always nice to me. i couldn’t believe it. but out of everything thats happened theres one thing that hurts and i can never forget , but since hes not mine anymore i need to forget. we promised to always love each other no matter what happens and to this day i still love him with all my heart and nothing is going to change how i feel until i feel what love is again with someone else and ever since we broke up i couldn’t feel love anymore so its gonna be awhile. i try to forget him but i cant because of how much he loved me and how much he hurt me. he cared so much about me, if he saw cuts on me he would cry, if he found out that i was hurting really bad or was thinking about suicide he would call me immediately just to make sure i wouldn’t do anything stupid to myself. but when he told me he should have letted me kill myself it hurt, when he loved another person it hurt because he was someone i loved and i couldn’t imagine him doing something like this to me. hes not mine anymore and i know he never will be again because he hates me with all his heart, i wish i could go back and do what i needed to do what i needed to do for us to still be together and that is going to school. i figured out that that was why he didn’t love me anymore. i think we all know who i’m talking about and he’ll probably see this, but he wouldn’t give a fuck about it but i just wanted to say i miss you, i miss calling you that cute nickname, i miss your voice,i miss your love and comfort you might not remember but we promised to love each other no matter what happened to us and i kept that promise. i miss talking to you till we fell asleep. i just want to say im sorry for everything i did to you. i love you and miss you with all my heart everyday.
but its not like you care about this and i know you wouldn’t see this unless one of your friends saw it and told you to look at it.